(June 30, 2011)
Do not even call me a nerd. Hello, kettle? It's the pot. You're black.
Haha you like working in extremes? My, this is NEWS!!! Stop the presses :P
Wow, we're getting a lot of clipped, vaguely terse sarcastic comments today. Haha I hope you love them. My wit isn't just for everyone, you know.
For his birthday, I made Stephen a CD. I was soundly mocked by my siblings for this particular decision, who desperately wanted to know about the "mixtape of love" I was putting together for him. Really, it wasn't a big deal - I have a fairly decent handle on his music taste, so I went through mine and found things I was pretty certain he didn't have but would definitely appreciate. So, some thought and effort, but minimal funds. All in all, a good decision.
As for the status of our relationship, I think that I could explain it far better than you could glean information about it from what I got him for his birthday :P We're currently in a most peculiar limbo between friends and dating. We haven't directly talked about it, but neither of us wanted to just dive into boyfriend/girlfriendness. I can hear your snort of derisive disbelief that I don't want to dive into a relationship (or perhaps not, you always display an uncanny ability to know me better than I know myself), but seriously, I don't. It's weird. I would have thought that given an opportunity to date someone I both respect and am deeply attracted to, I'd go all barnacle on him and latch on. But actually....I'm really comfortable just figuring this out. I'm not sure that we're a good fit yet.
Related, the time has come for me to wave the white flag and admit defeat. Alright, boys of the past year....you were right in saying that I have issues with commitment. I genuinely thought they were wrong. Truly. But given the fact that I really like Stephen, have had a crush on him for forever, suddenly have prospects with him and something in me is still digging in its heals about actually dating him? Yeah, we're going to have to go with there being some peculiar eccentricity in my paradigm affecting that. There's a lot of things I'm learning about myself with this whole thing that I'd never expected before. Haha, oh, and Stephen doesn't know that I've never really been in a relationship before. I felt it prudent, considering that that would seem to be kind of a big deal. However, it's making discussion of my romantic past somewhat complicated :P
Basically, I don't know exactly what's up with this whole thing....But it's INSANELY different from anything else I've ever had. Most pleasant limbo experience ever :P
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